Ever since I discovered the joys of mascara and eyeliner back in middle school, I’ve worn makeup every day. Every single day for the past 11 years — except for a small handful of times when I was sick or just wasn’t leaving the house. I love makeup. I think it’s so much fun getting all dolled up, or even just adding a touch of blush here and a little mascara there to draw some attention to some of my features.
What I don’t love, however, is the feeling that I need to wear makeup. I know that beauty comes from within and that I’m still me no matter what product is on my face, but somehow over the years I seem to have developed a dependency on it. There was a time, back in high school, where I wouldn’t even leave my bedroom to greet my family without wearing mascara. It sounds silly, but it’s the absolute truth.
I have incredibly light eyelashes and blemish-prone skin – two things that I strive to alter every day when I apply my makeup in the morning. It’s not that I’m embarrassed of these things, it’s just that I feel more confident when I look a certain way. But, why? Why do I care? Who cares? Do you care? I shouldn’t care. I’m me.
Monday morning I was running a little bit behind schedule, so I threw my makeup in my purse, deciding that I’d just apply it once I got to work. Somehow in the span of time between throwing the makeup in my purse and exiting my front door, I changed my mind. I glanced at myself in the mirror, and without much thought, I said to myself, “Actually, I kind of don’t want to wear makeup today.” And just like that, my mind was made up.
For the first time in 11 years, I spent an entire day in public sans makeup. I went about my day, walking around, talking to people, laughing, joking, and doing my work, and everything was the same. Everything was the same except for one thing – I felt a little bit freer. I love makeup and I have no plans to stop wearing it for good, but the feeling I have right now – the knowledge that I am not tied to makeup in any way – is something that I’m proud of, and something I’m so glad to have discovered.
A few years ago, if you told me that I would post a photo of myself without makeup for all Free People blog readers to see, I would have just laughed. But I need to seal this deal.
If any of you are in the same boat – feeling tied to a beauty product or tech device or anything else you feel you can’t live without – I hope that the words in this post can offer you the confidence to go without it, just for a day. Whatever it may be, you certainly don’t need it. In my opinion, you’re stronger without it.
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