It’s my birthday on Wednesday and, once again, I can’t help but feel reflective.
Has that ever happened to you? Whether it’s a new year, embarking on a new age, or maybe it’s a life event that has made you look back and ponder… think, reflect. Well, tomorrow I’m turning another year older and have been doing a whole ‘lotta reflecting. Not your typical, “I’m another year older, woe is me, I’m soooo old,” kind of thinking. (Though those thoughts sometimes do try to sneak into my mind.) Rather, my recent reflection has been about feeling grateful and appreciative of this life I’ve been able to live thus far. I’m grateful for the ups, the downs, and the ins and outs. I’m grateful for the feeling of being loved and yet also the harsh feeling of bitter loneliness. I’m grateful for my health, even when it may waver. I’m grateful to know what comfortable feels like, but also the unnerving feeling of anxiety and stress. My face may be decorated with more wrinkles, but it’s only because I’ve expressed a life’s worth of emotion. My sun-kissed freckles may now be dark sun spots, but it’s only because I’ve lived a life outside, exploring this vast world.
This year, it’s not about what I haven’t done yet, it’s about what I have already experienced… the life/lives I’ve been lucky to live. To feel with your heart, to pour out hope, to give to others, to work hard, to take a risk, to live… for that I am grateful this birthday. For that, I am celebrating.
+ Does anyone else share birthdays this season? What are you celebrating this year?
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